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Monday, February 13, 2012

"Bacon" Explosion Burritos (and my first ever recipe blog!)

Breakfast burritos are one of my favourite foods EVER. I could seriously eat one every day and not get sick of it. However, when I became vegan, I had to alter them. Luckily, I discovered that tofu mimics the taste and texture of scrambled eggs quite well, and there are loads of bacon alternatives. Now, you don't have to be vegan, or even veggie to enjoy this delicious recipe, as it is much healthier than a traditional bacon-and-egg breakfast too.

"BACON" Explosion Burritos (3 very generous burritos)

1 (12 oz) block of firm or extra-firm tofu
salt and pepper to taste
1/2 teaspoon turmeric (this helps give the tofu that eggy yellow colour, optional)
1 tsp margarine or oil (I use Earth Balance or canola oil)
2 tbs tamari (Soy sauce works too, but tamari has a stronger flavour)
6-8 slices imitation bacon (I recommend Lightlife)
1/4 cup imitation bacon bits (not the nasty hard ones used in salads)
cheese of your choice, to taste
3 burrito-sized tortillas

OPTIONAL:
1/2 onion, diced
1/2 bell pepper (red or green), diced
1/8 cup green chile sauce or salsa
1 cup cooked o'brien or hash brown potatoes

1) Drain tofu and press. To press, put the tofu on a plate, put another plate over it. Now place something heavy like a textbook on top of the plate. Wait about 30-45 minutes so all the liquid can drain. This step is essential! If you don't press out the water, the tofu won't be able to absorb flavours and will be a soggy mess. Once tofu is pressed drain off all the water and crumble with your hand.

2) In a large skillet, heat the oil on medium-high heat. Then saute tofu, bell peppers and onions (if you are using them) for about 3-5 minutes. Now add turmeric, salt, pepper, tamari and bacon bits. Reduce heat to medium and cook for another 5 minutes.

3) Whilst the tofu is cooking prepare the bacon in a different pan. Cook according to package directions. When done set aside.

4) Heat up the tortillas. I like to heat them up directly on the burner when I have a gas stove. But if you don't, just pop them in the microwave for 30 seconds.

5) Now it's time to make the burritos. Lay the tortilla flat and line up the bacon in the center. If you made potatoes, add these as well. They'll probably overlap. Now add a small heap of the tofu mixture on top (not too much, or you won't be able to fold the burrito!). Sprinkle as much cheese as you would like on top, and add salsa or green chile sauce if you're so inclined.

6) Roll up and enjoy!


Wasn't that easy and delicious? I hope to post more recipes in the future. Stay tuned!

M.




Monday, February 6, 2012

The Last Love Letter I've Ever Gotten

Found in my Saved email folder whilst doing a routine spam purge. Here it is in its entirety.

It took me a long time to

get to a place mentally where it

didn't upset me to think about you.

From very early on when we met, I

wanted nothing but to just be with

you, around you, etc. I would have

gone anywhere, and done anything,

just to see you smile.

I don't know if I told you

this, I may have. I think I told

you this as you were telling me to

stay out of your life and how (name withheld)

was such a great guy. On that one

night when I walked to your house

really late, just as I was coming

to the roundabout that divides the

two mesas, I turned around. A

shooting star went across the sky.

I had never, ever seen one before.

I decided that it must be a good

omen, and I thought that if I had

just one wish in life it would be

to be with you. True story.

Well, I think everyone

knows what happened. For every

minute we were together you've

spent at least 6 trying to keep me

away from you, trying to get me to

leave you alone. And for every

minute we were together I've spent

6 as an emotional train wreck. Was

it worth it to me to spend 6 times

the time we were together with a

broken heart and a withered soul?

I don't know. I had become a

zombie. I didn't talk anymore then.

I walked around with one expression

on my face and was never more than

2 and a half seconds away from a

total breakdown. My boss finally

noticed that my soul had been

crushed out of existence and I was

now just an automaton. So people

tried to help me.

I spent *years* wanting

nothing else but to be with you.

And at every single step of the way

you had some method, motivation or

reason to reject me. Suppose I

should have learned to take a hint.

I'm not very smart though. At some

point I did get to a place where I

recognized that just staying away

from you and not getting

emotionally involved in anything to

do with you was the best path.

And then, much later, you

started your whole "fox-hound"

thing. I was highly suspicious that

it was bait for an emotional bear

trap. But it went on so long and I

wanted to believe it so badly that

I took it. And now I'm emotionally

maimed again.

I love you way too much for

my own good, obviously. Not very

long at all after I accepted your

efforts you discarded the entire

thing. I don't know the real reason

why but I can't believe it would be

over calling you the wrong name.

I was rejected, yet again.

I was given the "just

friends" routine.

This time was a little

different though. This time was

especially heart wrenching because

of everything else going on in my

life. I just couldn't find anything

in my life that I had to look

forward to. Nothing to give me at

least a little hope that one day it

would all just be better. I had

"us" to hope for. And I tried so

hard to keep that in my mind, to

focus on it and not have to think

about everything else in my life.

But it was just a mirage. There is

no water at this oasis, just more

sand.

Sorry about everything. I'm

sorry I've bothered you for so

long, and for whatever I did to

make you want to do this. I have no

heart to open up to anybody

anymore. I love you, since the

beginning of it all, love too much

for me, whether I hide or show it.

Like a dried out twig, I can only

bend so far before I break.


I love you and I'm sorry,

-(name withheld)
11/22/2010

**************************************************************************************

I want you all to know something. I learned a very important lesson. When a love this strong, this powerful, and this enduring comes along, for the sake of all that's green DO NOT LET IT GO. No matter what anyone tells you. No matter how difficult things may seem at the time, they can always get better. Relationships are hard work, and you have to be wiling to put in a lot of effort to make them last. People are so obsessed with the fairy-tale notion that you'll be one hundred percent happy when you're with the right person. I wish that were true but it's not.

Love letters are a lost art these days. If you love someone, write them a letter and tell them so. It means so much more than a cutesy "143" text.

M.


Thursday, January 26, 2012

Living With Borderline Personality Disorder: My Story

I'm hardly ever the same person from one day to the next.
I'm impulsive, insecure, and paranoid. My views of people can shift rather rapidly. Someone who once elicited high praise from me at one point may be looked down upon fairly quickly. At 26 I've already had three broken engagements and one failed marriage. I fear being alone or abandoned, but at the same time I push people away because I am afraid they'll get too close. I have many acquaintances, but very few real friends. Some days I cry myself to sleep because I can't shake the thought that everyone secretly hates me.
I realise I must sound like a complete head case. But for me and the other 1.4 percent of America suffering from borderline personality disorder, this is normal. When people meet me for the first time, they usually see a fun, talkative, cheerful girl. I'm the one taking up the whole dance floor at the club. I'm the one who always seems to be making jokes. I love animals; I'm the proud owner of four hermit crabs.  I love makeup and fashion, so I'm always experimenting with new looks (I have dyed my hair almost every colour imaginable). On the outside, I'm a completely average person.
But look closer, and you'll see that things are not what they seem.
One of the major components of BPD is the constant identity crisis. I am of Mexican and Spanish ancestry, and ever since I was a child I've known that I am a minority in America. I always had difficulty fitting in. The other Hispanic children wouldn't have me because I was "whitewashed"-- I didn't speak Spanish, and I was "too smart". The white kids grudgingly accepted me, but I knew I was different and it bothered me. I was harassed, bullied and beat up a lot as a child. As I grew up and started exploring my talents (writing and singing being the big ones) I made more friends, but no matter which group I was a part of, I always felt like an outsider. To this day I feel alone even when amongst people whom I know care about and like me.
Another major part of my daily existence: impulsiveness. For me it has manifested as binge eating and alcohol drinking, yo-yo dieting, chain smoking, promiscuity, and debt because I have poor money management skills. All of these are issues I have had on and off since I was about 16 or so. One of the reasons people with BPD tend to be so impulsive is because we never learned how to harness our emotions. I am prone to fits of rage, sometimes for no reason, and I lash out and break things or hurt people. I also deal with chronic feelings of emptiness; in the past self-destructive behaviours served to fill the void. I tend to feel and perceive everything in extremes. I have difficulty trusting anyone and if I dislike someone, that dislike is usually permanent.
As stated above, my personality has caused me to lose lots of friends over the years, and I have had a series of intense, often short-lived romantic relationships. I have been called a drama queen and an attention whore more times than I can count. Some people have difficulty seeing me as a person with an illness. I have been on medication to help ease the other symptoms of this disease (clinical depression and panic attacks). I think I'm no different than any other person with a chronic illness, yet I have had significant othersd  break up with me because of it, and I have estranged much of my family at times. It really bothers me when people don't understand and worse, they don't want to.
According to research, the symptoms of BPD tend to wane with advancing age, so there is hope. I try my best to live life with purpose so I don't feel so empty, bored and restless all the time. Every day is a process and a struggle. I hope one day I can find someone who will understand my illness, be prepared to deal with it and help me through it. My illness defines a lot of my behaviour, but every day I'm making progress. It's going to be a long and hard road to getting better... In the end though, it will be worth it!
For more on borderline personality disorder, visit: http://psychcentral.com/lib/2007/symptoms-of-borderline-personality-disorder/

Peace,

M.

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Find Me (Song Lyrics)

1. Another sleepless night
Without you by my side
Can't be without you anymore
Nothing's worth living for
She's still on your mind
Even though she left you behind
Come to your senses, love, and come to me
Imagine what we can be
Pre-Chorus.
All I want to do
Is find a way to cure your pain
Kiss away your tears
So you never hurt again
Chorus.Find me waiting
Find me contemplating
Find me wishing you were here
Keep me wondering, keep me guessing
Maybe one day I'll learn my lesson
Is this love, or is this fear
2. Another day passes by
Tell myself I'll be all right
One day you'll come around
As the sun, again, goes down
Well, I know this much is true
She's got a power over you
Am I a fool to pretend
That I'm winning in the end?
Pre-Chorus 2.
They say I'm crazy and I should give it up
Don't tell me maybe, it's not enough
(Chorus)
Bridge.
All I want is all of you (2x)
I'll show you that my love is true
All I want is all of you
(Chorus 2x)

---M.



Tuesday, December 27, 2011

The 10 Most Annoying Questions You Can Ask a Vegan (Part Two)

Back in November, I answered some questions that meat-eaters tend to ask vegans (or any vegetarian) a lot. I got a lot of positive feedback (and not just the two comments on the bottom, believe it or not), so I decided it's high time to write part 2! As always, if you have a question not answered in this blog, feel free to open a discussion. I will answer to the best of my knowledge, and if I don't know, I will point you to somewhere that does.

5) "Don't plants have feelings too?"

Ahhh.. Seventh grade life science. I remember doing a lot of fun stuff in that class. I used to flirt with the cute boy who was my lab partner, pick scabs and put the pickings under the miscroscope when we did labs... Those were some good days. One thing we learned is that certain life forms have these wonderful things called a nervous systems. These so-called nervous systems are what allow these life forms to feel. Now, you may be wondering, are plants in that group? I'm afraid not. Plants have no central nervous system, nor do they have a brain, so they can't feel.

So where did people get this idea that plants have feelings? Well, some time ago, a study was done which concluded that plants respond to stimuli. Over the years, people started equating this with feelings. Other people say that plants scream when they are plucked from the Earth, we just can't hear them. Unfortunately, there is absolutely no scientific data to back any of this up. The best part of the "plants have feelings too" bit is "too." One is basically acknowledging that animals have feelings and are capable of suffering. Animals suffer when they are killed for food; plants do not. This is yet another way that some meat-eaters try to shift the blame.

4.) "Weren't humans meant to eat meat? We're at the top of the food chain for a reason."

Here's a little challenge for you.

You're not allowed any weapons, just your bare hands and teeth. I want you to find a cow, chicken, or pig. Now, I want you to use your teeth and hands to rip apart this animal and eat it. RAW. You're not allowed to cook it or anything. Doesn't sound very appetising does it? Without all the lovely spices and hot cooking temperatures to kill the nasty bacteria that can otherwise kill you, meat is actually rather disgusting. Humans cannot eat raw meat; we would get sick, possibly die. Our mouths are full of flat, grinding teeth meant for plants, not meat. (Don't bother mentioning our wimpy canines, which wouldn't do much to take down a cow).

So how did humans get to the top of the food chain? By cheating. We lack the necessary tools to eat meat naturally (sharp claws, sharp teeth, proper digestive system) so we invented all kinds of machines to do the killing for us. We cook meat to make it palatable. There are animals like tigers and sharks which would actually be our natural predators if we didn't have all our lovely technology.

3.) "Doesn't being a vegan make you gay/girly/wimpy?"

Tell that too all the vegan bodybuilders and athletes out there! (And check out the website www.thediscerningbrute.com. Those guys look anything but girly to me.) Some MMA (mixed-martial arts) fighters are choosing vegan diets because of the strength it gives them. I have always wondered where the ghastly pale, gaunt vegan stereotype comes from. Men are conditioned to believe that steak is manly but salad is wimpy. Because of this, more men suffer from heart disease, atherosclerosis (hardening of the arteries), strokes, Alzheimer's disease, certain cancers, impotence... and they die younger too. Pretty manly, no?

Also, to answer "Does being vegan make you gay?"... Well, no one quite knows what causes people to be gay. But I can assure you that it's not because of veganism.

2.) "Don't we need dairy to be healthy?"

Let me lay this down for you, quite simply. Dairy products are some of the most unhealthy things you can put into your body. It is laden with saturated fat and cholesterol, the over-consumption of which can cause heart disease. Americans consume more dairy than any country on the planet and yet, we have the most cases of osteoporosis. Also, many people's bodies naturally reject dairy. I'm certain you've heard of a condition called lactose intolerance. Simply put, this means that your body does not produce the proper enzymes to break down lactose. Cow's milk was meant for baby cows, not humans. A lot of us grew up believing that we needed calcium for strong bones, and while this is definitely true, cow's milk simply doesn't cut it. Animal proteins actually usher calcium out of the body, and make the blood more acidic, which can cause numerous health complications.

Also, think about this: Humans are the ONLY species which continues to drink milk after weaning, and not just any milk, milk from a completely different species.

If you need any more reasons to ditch dairy, please check out: http://www.vegsource.com/julieanna-hever-ms-rd/10-reasons-to-ditch-dairy.html


1.) "Isn't everything in moderation okay?"

Most people eat way too much salt, sugar, fat, or protein. (Yes, there is such a thing as too much protein.) Some things are fine in moderation, like alcohol. (Moderate meaning a drink a day for women, and two for men, due to the differences in the way we process alcohol.) Few people eat meat in moderation though. Think about how many times a day you eat meat. You probably eat it with every meal. That isn't moderation.

Eating in moderation requires a ton of self-control and planning, something most people hate to do when it comes to food. It is much easier to just AVOID foods that are bad for you, and fill up on good foods. Over time you will start craving better food and ditch the junk. One thing that turns people off about veganism is how "restrictive" they think it is. I can assure you I am not restricted in any way! I still eat all my favourite food, I just vegan-ise it. My meals are varied and interesting; I rarely get bored. I'm not a moderate eater, but I am a happy one.


Have more questions? Comments? Post them below!

M.









Sunday, December 4, 2011

Love Doll (POETRY)

Your kisses taste so bittersweet
We could be something more
That's what bothers me
When it's over I always disappear
I sleep alone every night
Because you're never here
You say you want me when you call me
But you only want me when you're horny
I'm your sex doll
Take me or leave me
You leave me empty
My heart's broken and bleeding
I'm your sex doll
Discarded and ruined
Can't take anymore
I won't live through it
Last night you promised me someday
When it's all over
You're the one who gets away
I get nothing but lots of wasted time
People think I'm crazy
Cos I want to make you mine
But who wants a sex doll?
Used up like a tissue
Carefully concealed like a mental issue
Who wants a sex doll?
Well, you don't mind
But I'm cold and I'm lonely
When you leave me behind

---M.



Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Ready To Dump Dairy? A Primer on Plant-Based Milk

There are a lot of reasons to stop drinking cow's milk. Think about it for a minute. Humans are the only species that drink the milk of another species, and we are also the only ones who drink milk past infancy. Growing up, many of us think we need milk to be healthy. I'm sure you've seen the "Got Milk?" commercials that say, "Milk is essential for healthy bones and teeth." New research has shown that cow's milk actually leaches calcium from bones, and causes the blood to become acidic (Check out http://www.livestrong.com/article/248912-foods-that-leach-calcium/ if you want to learn more). We also do not need as much calcium as previously thought. The average adult can get along just fine with about 750 mg of dietary calcium a day (yes, even children).
Whatever your reason for giving up milk, be it ethical, health, whatever-- there's a plant-based milk to suit your needs and taste buds. The goods news is that it's getting easier to find them at your local store. Plant based milks are often fortified with vitamins and minerals; some are way more nutritious than dairy milk! Below, I have compiled a list of plant milks, what they taste like, how much they cost, and where you can find them.

Soy milk

What does it taste like? I won't lie, soy milk is definitely an acquired, love-it-or-hate-it kind of taste. The texture is NOT like cow's milk, it is rather thick. The taste is very strong and nutty. Soy milk can be used in cooking and baking (stick to unsweetened, unflavoured for this).

Recommended brand/flavour: Soy newbies should check out Silk Very Vanilla. The sweet overtones of the vanilla mix with the nuttiness of the soy for a winning taste combination. I do not recommend trying plain soy milk if you are new to it. You WILL hate it.

Where can I find it? Just about every grocery store carries it these days. Check the dairy section.

Almond Milk

What does it taste like? It has a a very sweet, nutty flavour, like soy milk, but some people prefer it due to its richness, smooth texture, and versatility. Use it in a smoothie, on your cereal, or in rice pudding for a delicious change. Almond milk is also very rich in the antioxidant vitamin E.

Recommended brand/flavour: Blue Diamond, any variety. Try the chocolate, the creamy, rich flavour puts chocolate milk to shame.

Where can I find it? Wal-Mart, Albertson's, Trader Joe's, Whole Foods

Coconut Milk

What does it taste like? Coconut milk tastes just like... wait for it... Coconuts! If you hate coconuts, don't even bother. The texture is rich and somewhat oily. Many people like to use it in cooking Thai-based dishes (for this, use canned, NOT the refrigerated kind in a carton). Coconut milk is compartively healthier than cow's milk because it has zero cholesterol, less calories, and is high in iron.

Recommended Brand/Flavour: Try Silk Pure Coconut. It is available in original or vanilla.

Where can I find it? Check the dairy section at your favourite grocer.

Hemp Milk

What does it taste like? I do not want to sound biased, but hemp milk isn't for everyone. It has a strong, nutty, slightly bitter flavour that bites! It is very rich in Omega 3 and Omega 6, nutrients which may keep your heart healthy.

Recommended Brand/Flavour: Ready to take the hemp plunge, man? Don't worry, it's completely legal and it won't make you high. Try Living Harvest Vanilla hemp milk. It is excellent in chai tea.

Where can I find it? Hemp milk is not widely available in the United States just yet; try your local health food store. Whole Foods has a selection of hemp milk available. See http://wholefoodsmarket.com/stores/ for stores.

Flax Milk

What does it taste like? It has a nutty, pleasant, yet undistinct flavour, making it very easy to use in your favourite recipes and for drinking. Flax has been shown to be very high in Omega-3.

Recommended flavour/brand: As far as I know, only one company makes it: Flax USA. It is available in original or vanilla.

Where can I find it? Select Wal-Mart stores carry it so far. It may be more widely available in the future.

Rice Milk

What does it taste like? Rice milk is sweet and creamy; but some are turned off by the "watered down" taste. I find it best to use in cereal. Also, it does not contain the protein that some plant-based milks do.

Recommended flavour/brand: Rice Dream has the best rice milk I've tried.

Where can I find it? Check the dairy section at your local grocer.

What are your reasons for going dairy-free? Have you tried a plant based milk, and if so, what did you think? Comment below, and good luck on your dairy-free journey!


M.